i wonder

if you are dead?

i never

heard

back

cry out to you...

" the police just came... i have to go down to the station..

i am so scared... pray for me..."

2 hours later

"call me later... i am in big trouble

but i am too upset to

talk to you

right now"

3 hours later

i know nothing

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.

4 hours later

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.

Lord God, I ask for the wisdom

to stand out of the way and

let your work be done.

I know there is no God greater

than you

I know you are able!

I know you have a plan

and purpose in my life

and in Leah's life

I ask again for the wisdom

to stand out of the way

and let you do

what you do!

I ask this in Jesus name. Amen!

hi-ho the derry-o

hope..
floats around and dances with my desire
for my world to right itself
listening to you speak tonight
hope fluttered her watered soaked wings
tried to believe
tried to trust
wanted to so badly delve back into
that world of make believe
when you were
not an addict...
though when that was i sadly don't remember
hope has a troubling sense of humor
hi-ho the derry-o the cheese stands alone....
and i NEVER want to be the cheese again...
hope teases ... churning up thoughts you bury to
protect ones self
hope messes with the walls created to prevent
total annihilation of ones self
still... water soaked wings are
drying by infinitesimal increments...
Hebrews 11:1
faith ... the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen
Proverbs 13:12
hope deffered can make the heart sick...
but a dream fullfilled is the tree of life...
1 Corinthians 13:13
and now these three remain... faith... hope... and love
and greatests of these is love

in every corner of my life and world, i choose dreams fullfilled... i choose love.